Thursday, May 21, 2009

How Much Is Too Much?

My sister and I were discussing Kayleigh's story and she asked me:  "How much is too much?  How much money is too much to spend? How many surgeries are too many?  When do you say enough is enough?"

At the time I shrugged my shoulders.  I didn't have my answer until later, when I held my sleeping child, marvelling at how sweet and beautiful his sleeping face was to me.

The simple answer is that there is that too much does not exist when your child is concerned.  I would willingly drive myself into a debt I could not possibly recover from for Connor.  I would work as many jobs as I had to...and if that was not enough I would beg, lie, even steal if that was the only way that I could obtain the means to save his life.   

Even though I don't believe that prayer works, I am not ashamed to ask for prayers, or even animal sacrifice for his benefit just on the OFF chance that there could be some positive result.

As for what I would be willing to put him through physically and emotionally...I don't have an answer to that question and I desperately hope I never have to face it.  I would urge him to fight as much as he had the capacity to fight.  He is strong and stubborn and I know it would take a lot before I was willing to let him give up.

It is hard...and yet it is easy.  When your child is first put into your arms you know that the tiny person you're holding is bigger than you....and there is nothing you wouldn't do for them.  If you have someone in your life that you would die for, kill could it be possible that ANYTHING would be too much?


Nana said...

That is so true ef, and you want to know something, no matter how old they get that feeling never goes away. When it your child there is never to much

Melanie said...

Found your blog through the single parent's BBC board :)

Just have to say, as a Canadian the concept of "How much money is too much" floors me. In my opinion this topic should never even need to come up!

Once again I am so so so glad that I live here. Cameron needs medical assistance? I never once have to think about my bank account or credit card. He just gets the help he needs.