Wednesday, January 7, 2009

I WILL Win, Darn You.

I'm stuck. I have been working to lose 15lbs for 2 months now. I lose some, then regain it. Lose, gain, lose, gain. My only comfort is that I haven't gone over a certain amount. I REFUSE to lose the ground I have made so far.

I blame the holidays. I do well for a few days and then there is another event that encourages gluttony and indulgence. I also blame soda. I had weaned myself off it for the most part, but then I let myself have a little...after that I had a LOT. I had to put a stop to that so my only beverages have been 1% milk, coffee with splenda & powdered creamer, diet soda, 10 Calorie Fuze, and Water. (What can I say? I'm a thirsty girl) The only calories I have to worry about is the milk and creamer.

When I lose this 15lbs I will be on a MISSION to lose 40. Cause if I can get those 15, I can get the 40. I know that sounds crazy, but I will be hitting a HUGE milestone when I lose those 15 that I am NOT mentioning here.

So I want to knock out those 15lbs by March, and the other 40 by Connor's first Birthday. If I make it, I will have lost 100lbs within the span of a year. Connor will have a mommy who actually has a chance to keep up with him when he starts to walk.

The only difficult part will be keeping enough calories and fat in to keep my milk up. If I skip meals my milk dwindles, so I can't take short cuts. I just have to be healthy. I can do healthy. I was doing it when I had to do it for Connor...I just have to remind myself that THIS is for Connor too. He deserves a fit, healthy mom who can keep pace with him as he grows and becomes more active.

I am really looking forward to when the days start to get longer so he and I can take walks in the evening.

I am not the only one with a weight loss goal.

A friend is also working on losing weight, so hopefully we can help keep each other on task.

Wish me luck! ...and if I come to eat at your house, only offer me good stuff.

1 comment:

Stephanie F. said...

Great blog post! I'm with you every step of the way! And thanks for referencing my blog. Your last line especially made me laugh (the part about going to other people's houses).

You can do it!!!!!!!!