I WILL Win, Darn You.

I'm stuck. I have been working to lose 15lbs for 2 months now. I lose some, then regain it. Lose, gain, lose, gain. My only comfort is that I haven't gone over a certain amount. I REFUSE to lose the ground I have made so far.

I blame the holidays. I do well for a few days and then there is another event that encourages gluttony and indulgence. I also blame soda. I had weaned myself off it for the most part, but then I let myself have a little...after that I had a LOT. I had to put a stop to that so my only beverages have been 1% milk, coffee with splenda & powdered creamer, diet soda, 10 Calorie Fuze, and Water. (What can I say? I'm a thirsty girl) The only calories I have to worry about is the milk and creamer.

When I lose this 15lbs I will be on a MISSION to lose 40. Cause if I can get those 15, I can get the 40. I know that sounds crazy, but I will be hitting a HUGE milestone when I lose those 15 that I am NOT mentioning here.

So I want to knock out those 15lbs by March, and the other 40 by Connor's first Birthday. If I make it, I will have lost 100lbs within the span of a year. Connor will have a mommy who actually has a chance to keep up with him when he starts to walk.

The only difficult part will be keeping enough calories and fat in to keep my milk up. If I skip meals my milk dwindles, so I can't take short cuts. I just have to be healthy. I can do healthy. I was doing it when I had to do it for Connor...I just have to remind myself that THIS is for Connor too. He deserves a fit, healthy mom who can keep pace with him as he grows and becomes more active.

I am really looking forward to when the days start to get longer so he and I can take walks in the evening.

I am not the only one with a weight loss goal.

A friend is also working on losing weight, so hopefully we can help keep each other on task.

Wish me luck! ...and if I come to eat at your house, only offer me good stuff.